this place was so full of negative energy and anger when I was a kid and somehow it’s all back again.
all I know is when I have kids I’m going to do my damnedest to make sure they grow up in a happy environment.
if my mother was so unhappy here for so long why didn’t she just leave? why didn’t she get a divorce? because that would be failing?
because if it was the whole “we stayed together for the kids” that’s a load of shit. the angry environment I grew up in was not healthy. it did me no fucking good.
my mother told me that she hates me today. and the worst thing is I think I believe her. I am so much like my father and she hates him too.
just fuck everything right now.